I was so worried for the past few days...
Although it was said to be a small surgery, I still worried...
There is a risk in any surgery.
Thank God she is all right!
She has to rest for around two weeks after the surgery.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Lonely guy...
Lonely 2010 Christmas...
Lonely 2011 New Year...
Lonely 2011 Chinese New Year...
Lonely 2011 Valentine Day...
Lonely 2011 My Birthday???
Christmas Eve and Christmas - Just stayed at home and online. Even slept earlier because felt so lonely and depress.
New Year - Countdown at Tropicana City Mall alone.
Chinese New Year - Went to two secondary friends' house on the first day of Chinese New Year in the afternoon. As usual, I did not talk much. I just chat a while with the friend I used to be so closed with. They had gathering for gambling, drinking and chit-chat at night at one of the friends' house but I did not join. Sorry guys... I just did not have mood to do things together. I hate myself for being this kind of person. I will feel lonely even though I can spend time with a bunch of friends... unless I have a partner with me along.
Valentine Day Eve and Valentine Day - Felt so lonely and empty especially when listening to all those flowery words and dedications on the radio. The DJ was discussing on what gifts to give to the other halves and how to celebrate this loving day tomorrow. My head like going to explode in the next minute. WHERE IS THE CUPID? I think he did shoot me. He just shot my heart with one of his arrows.
All those flowers...
All those hearts...
All those chocolates...My Birthday - ???
There is no 29th Feb on this year... But even there is... who will be celebrating with me...
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Such a loser . . .
LOVE
Such a loser...
I was not given a chance to mend the relationship as she just left me without me knowing the reason...
Yea. My fault...
CAREER
Such a loser...
I was not given a chance to go overseas because all think I was not capable...
Yea. My fault...
FAMILY
Such a loser...
Brothers never respect me as the eldest because I don't have charisma and leadership...
Yea. My fault...
Such a loser...
Why would You ever give me the chance to see this world?
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Chinese New Year
Everyone was busy preparing to celebrate Chinese New Year.
The deafening sound of fire crackers could be heard everywhere.
Everyone seemed to be excited and happy to welcome the new year.
For me, it was just like any other day.
My parents were doing last minutes cleaning because cleaning was forbidden tomorrow.
Two of my brothers and I were helping them also.
Only the third brother was not helping.
This was not the first time.
He never helped me to clean the house when we were staying in Petaling Jaya.
Since everyone was doing the cleaning work, I just said to him , "I will mop the floor upstairs and you should mop the floor downstairs."
He said, "Why should I? Why must you give me order? You just mop wherever you want. The floor downstairs you need not bother. If no one is going to mop, then just let it be. Now you command me...I even don't want to do it."
(WTF!!!)
I said, "If I don't ask (not order) you to do so, you won't even bother to notice that everyone is cleaning the house and bother to do it."
He said, "How you know I won't do it? (I just knew it. He never helped while in PJ and he didn't bother to start to help when everyone was busy cleaning.) Now you command me...I even don't want to do it."
He ruined my Chinese New Year. From a calm (can't say happy) Chinese New Year... became a mad Chinese New Year... I was angry by the way he spoken. Is this the way he talk to his brother? I had to hold my anger during the reunion dinner. When I was about to finish my rice, the front part of one of the chopsticks was even accidentally bitten by me until broke into two. I went to take bath after rest for a while. I still could not suppress my anger. I had a headache. I just went to bed. . .(around 10.30 pm)
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