Dear Bubu

I wondered, "Do I ever cross your mind?"
I seem like a nobody to you even after knowing each other for almost half a year.
Since you are beautiful and smart, I know you have a lot of admirers ranging from rich, handsome and well-built.
Am I silly to think that Bubu will ever give me a chance?
I guess I might not even qualify to be in your list.
Do I make it into the backup list?
My buddy told me that you replied my messages and allowed me to go out with you a few times because you were just merely bored or unhappy that time.
But I didn't believe him and I wouldn't think like that. I would think that Bubu was giving me chances to know you more.
Too bad I was not acting so naturally and "performing" every time we met.
That day you said that "I think I'm not your type as you want" and I would think that you're not ready to be in a relationship and not like what those comments in the internet on this phrase.
You asked me on how I know whether you are my type.
I can tell you that I am not only attracted to your beauty but also your inner beauty because I know you!
I know you from my observation and from your blog.
You have indirectly told me who you are.
You seem to be hurt and insecure in relationship already.
You said that you just want us to be remained friends as of now.
I thought at least we have time to spend together as a friend and then we see how we can go from there.
But you seem to be still avoiding me and don't even treat me like a friend.
I'll be going to Nepal today.
I wish to see how it is looked like the place that Bubu wants to visit.
I appreciate that you let me to go along with you as we discussed earlier, even though I'm not sure until now whether you really meant it at that time.
I'll send some photos/videos to you later.
I am not doing this to impress you. I just want to do something for you. I do not know how to describe it.
I guess maybe this are some silly things people do when they fall in love.
This may be the last thing I can do for you.
If you don't like, just press "delete".
I'll disappear after that.
Hopefully I can see you again in next life...
I know Bubu's life is full of hard times and challenges.
I will support Bubu no matter what.


Still loving you,

Niku